im f#*ked up tonight because of history’s assignment… i had been doing it for 2 days and there still isn’t any progress going on… since it was history which i think it suppose to be theorical and more on real-life visual(photographs), why on earth it’s so bloody important for architecture students to effing draw the building out by hand..!!! i admit my drawing is bad, and i’m trying to fix it edi as far as i can but can’t get the sense why this assignment has to be particularly on the drawing instead of the information itself..?!?!?!

dear lecturer, im not against you.. if i am, i will be meeting you up about this…haiz… i just cant wait to get out of university life asap with this degree…………….. i just can bear the life like this, bounded and sudden release and then for no proper reason bounded tighter……. its really very hard to be understood.. i mean design especially…nothing seemed to be right or wrong… just whether you like it or not…

i dunno why i came into this course btw…. grafic design/ advertising to interior design….near but faaaaaaaaaaaaaar…….

cost my parents a fortune as well… i felt like being dooped by the college’s managements at the same time…. it says 45k fot the whole course but now, i think its more than 55k perhaps… bloody hell…. based on the amount we paid, i dont see any enhancements by the college to students….at all..!!! this might not be seen on rich students btw… money doesnt seemed to be a problem to them… just lecturers’ requirements on assignment…. why life have to be like this… status…wealth… poverty… not saying that im poor but i just think the cost of everything is burdening me and the person paying it…